Why seek out new life, when you can create it from the comfort of your own home?

Last night, as we were laying down for sleep, Bionca grabbed my hand and put it on her belly, and said, “Do you feel anything.” I sat there hoping to feel something, and I think that I may have a few times. I really wasn’t sure it wasn’t her muscles moving, or even my own pulse, I think that I might have felt something.

It’s still early for know for sure, but it will come. In the mean time, that may have been the first contact that I have had with my child.

I am getting a glimpse what it is like for Christians to love Jesus despite never seeing him. That is exactly how I feel about Peanut. I’ve never seen Peanut except as a vague blob on a screen, and I have yet to feel my child move, and so our relationship  is mostly based on faith. It’s amazing that I can love someone so completely, that for all intents and purposes doesn’t yet exist. So here’s my prayer to my child.

Our child, who art unborn, Love be thy name. In our life to come, life will be fun, from infancy to grandkids. Give us the time to come to know you, and forgive us our mistakes, as we will forgive all of yours, and try not to stifle you, as we protect you from evil. For thine is our wisdom, our love, and our family, forever and ever.

Amen.

My jeans have been getting smaller and smaller (I was using a hair tie to keep them together). I have been feeling very sad about getting fat (I know it’s not getting “fat”, but getting baby). As a girl who has struggled with my weight all my life, this pregnancy has really played with my emotions about getting bigger.

So, today I went to the mall to try to find some jeans for my new body. I first went to JCPenny and tried on a few pair but wasn’t impressed with the selection or how they looked on. So, I moved on to Motherhood. I was so excited when I walked in the store and I saw they had a Plus size section. I was positive that I was going to need to order on line. The ladies in there were so super nice and were happy to help me without being pushy, a big plus! They pulled a few styles from both the regular and plus sizes just to see. I went in to the fitting room with pretty low expectations but was willing to give it a shot. I tried on the regular size jeans first, and wow, did they fit great! I was so happy. They looked so good on and made my butt look great, a must for a good pair of jeans. Next, I tried on the plus jeans. They were too big! I felt skinny for the first time in like, forever! I tried on other styles but none fit as nice as the first pair. I just had to get them.

So, now I have a new jeans. A pair that don’t make me feel fat. A pair that as Peanut grows, my pants will accommodate my ever expanding belly. Who knew that jeans made for women whose wastes are expanding daily could make me feel so good?

There are a lot of options for children’s programming these days, and not all of it is good. Several years ago, Bionca and I decided that we would control what our children would watch, the criteria if very subjective, and based on the quality of the show, and how annoying it is or isn’t. Here’s the current list. We’ll update this as we find new shows.

Approved List

• Jack’s Big Music Show – They really have some great music on this show.
• Backyardagains – They are creative and clever, and have good music.
• Sesame Street – Decades of brilliance.
• Franklin – Very benign, and some diversity in stories
• Little Bear – I don’t know this show either, and trust Bionca’s judgment.
• Little Bill – Great characters, and stories.
• Super Why – Bionca likes it. I have no clue what it is.
• Cid the Science Kid – Never seen it, but Bionca likes it, and I like the name.
• Max and Ruby – While it is a bit repetitive, the characters are entertaining.
• Sponge Bob – I’ll watch this on my own.
• Little Einsteins – Pretty cute and not too much repetition.

Not Approved

• Dora the Explorer – She yells all the time, and that is annoying, and to top it off, every show is exactly the same.
• Yo Gaba Gaba – I can’t get over the character that looks like a dildo.
• Wonder Pets – It’s the same damn thing every time. Hire a real animator.